The Most Wonderful Terrible Person - by Debra Miller Paperback

Book Synopsis

For fans of Joan Didion and anyone fascinated by true crime, a daughter's raw and unflinching account of California's infamous murder trial of her mother, Lucille Miller--and the decades of emotional wreckage it left in its wake.

On October 7, 1964, Debra Miller's life turns upside down when her mother is arrested for the murder of her father. At only fourteen years old, Debra becomes a ward of the court, grappling with the unfathomable trauma of watching her mother's trial and conviction--a devastation that is only amplified when her family's tragedy is splashed across headlines nationwide and featured in Joan Didion's Slouching Towards Bethlehem.

Desperate to escape the notoriety of her family and utterly ill equipped to face the world, Debra spends her young adulthood sinking into mental illness, toxic relationships, and substance abuse. Meanwhile, her unrepentant mother, Lucille, uses Debra to supply contraband in prison. When Lucille is released, twentysomething Debra, seeking the love and support she so desperately desires, moves in with her--only to find herself constantly manipulated and dragged into her mother's illegal activities. Torn between love and survival, Debra spends years trying to escape her mother's vortex even as she battles her own demons. Ultimately, it's only when Lucille passes away that Debra finally frees herself from her grip--and realizes she needs to change her life.

In this raw and poignant memoir, Debra Miller bares the scars of an adolescence and adulthood shaped by the impact of a destructive mother and demonstrates that healing is always possible--even in the face of a past that just won't let go.

Review Quotes

"Debra Miller's writing is courageous and vulnerable as she scrapes at scabs that still feel unhealed after all these years. Choose me are the words that seem to jump off every page--a plea from Miller to her father's ghost, her manipulative mother, and all the men she sends away before they can leave her. Picking up Miller's memoir feels like choosing her."--Bridey Thelen-Heidel, author of Bright Eyes: Surviving Our Monsters and Learning to Live Without Them - A Memoir

"Like digging up a time capsule, Debra unearths a past filled with drugs, sex, and alcohol in the aftermath of her mother murdering her father. A remarkable memoir filled with searing pain, loss, and a deep need for love."--Stephanie Maley, author of No Longer That Girl

About the Author

Debra Miller grew up in San Bernardino County, where her mother was convicted of murdering her father when Debra was fourteen years old--the story she chronicles in The Most Wonderful Terrible Person, which is her debut memoir. She taught high school English for thirty-three years at an all-girls school in Los Angeles, California. Now retired, she lives in Playa del Rey, California, with her precious cat, Kiki.